Monday 31 December 2012

Auld Lang Syne



Give it till 1min and then get your New Year On!   See you in 2013 Bloggers x

End of an Era


Well I can safely say that 2012 has been one of those years that will be completely forgettable with time. For the record - it was crap.  On the plus side my NY resolution to pass my driving test was completed so at least a girl has something to smile about :)

Not sure what I'm up to tonight as I had planned to hit the town with Red and one of her friends but this seems to have migrated into a girly night in which although is something I enjoy pretty much zeros me bringing in 2013 with a bang.  Balloo called me last night however and 3hours later I'm left knowing that what I really want to do is head to his city and go party like it is 2005 and I was still living there lol.  I don't like letting people down however so I will do the right thing and stay here but watch this space, I'm already tapping him up for a place to crash next weekend so I can take on NY part 2.

So what is this year gonna bring and what will this look like for you blog readers?  Ok so things have slid for a while in terms of posting so I'm gonna up the ante again come the NY and keep you up to speed as I've been doing quite a lot but haven't been sharing the drama - where is the fun in that!?!?!

So until next year over and out (oh, and comment what you would like to see me blog about below and I will pick up each and every one in Jan)

Have a great one!

Monday 17 December 2012

Wellington Boots & The Rain

So the last 48hrs have been crazy!

I met Clerk on Friday and we had a great time, good food, good wine, good company.  I have to say I still can't work the whole thing out.  I didn't expect to have any kind of feelings for him but there is definitely something there and I get the impression that he is experiencing a similar thought process but neither of us were willing to risk it for a biscuit on Friday.  That said however we are going to meet as soon as our schedules match in the New Year so I will keep you up to date.

Work wise the proverbial seems to have hit the fan and with only 2 office days left before people start to go their seperate ways for Christmas, I had better get my ass into a higher gear.  Easier said than it sounds however as last night was pretty restless for one reason or another - temperature, work, a conversation I had had with Beef, things with Clerk rolling around in my head.

The big and completely worrying news of the last couple of days however is that having moved mum to the perfect house just under 6 months ago where we had planned she would stay for the rest of her days... the house owner has seriously screwed up their finances and mum recieved a letter from the letting agency this morning to tell her that the property was being put on the market and it was not guaranteed that it would be sold a buy to let opportunity.  Mum is devestated.  This time of year is hard enough for her as it is but with the news this morning she is in floods of tears and has already begun packing up.  She has also told me that she feels she shouldn't come for Christmas either as she needs to 'look for somewhere' - all of these actions are code red for 'mum is about to have another episode of depression'.  It is a total disaster!  Dads death date is just around the corner, she was just beginning to feel settled, get off her medication and enjoy life and now this.  Don't get me wrong, I will as usual take care of everything, the packing, finding her somewhere, everything!  but at the same time keeping her on track will be a nightmare.  I've already spoken to my brother who tends to fuel the fire the wrong way in situations like this to do some mum damage control but he had already spoken with her so I was too late.  If I was in a stable financial situation I would just go and get a mortgage but I am sooooooooooo far from there it is unbelievable.

Time to take a massive deep breath and get ready for what had started out as a really relaxing holiday period and is likely to turn into a total frickin stressful nightmare.  So much for lucky 13.

Friday 14 December 2012

Lucky 13

It seems this last week or so I've had something like luck around me.  I've had a few really great nights out, I've made a really great new friend in Beef, my body is starting to take shape in the way I want it, I entered a competition through one of our suppliers with work and won dinner for 2 at an Italian and this morning as part of a work incentive 25 names were pulled out of a hat (over 1800 employees) and mine was the first to be drawn.  Ok so there was an iPad, a 50inch TV and lots of 'Ohhhh I would love that' prizes to be won and I landed an xbox360 (something I already own and will struggle to send for any decent money) but come on!!  This is like a spurt of luck, I never get lucky!  Lets hope this is a sign of things to come :)

So I promised you some details about my old flatmate that I'm meeting tonight and so details you shall have.  First however lets give him a nickname in true Ser3ndipity style... Clerk (the street we first lived on).

So I had just moved back to the city I went to University at the first time around, it was in typical Ser3ndipity style... I woke up one morning, packed my bags, left my job and headed 'home' in search of good old friends, new experiences and another adventure.  I found a flatshare online, went to see the room and immediately took it.  I was to share with 4 others and a couple of their permenantly residing partners.  A girl in her mid 20s from Perth Scotland, a girl in her late 20s from South Africa and her bf, a guy from Essex and his gf and a guy from Michegan USA (I've told you about him before).  Anyway a couple of weeks after moving in Mr Michegan who I had been having a fun-filled fling with had to go back to the States so his room went up and Clerk moved in a week or so later.  Clerk at that time was rather quiet inside the flat, didn't socialise too much but seemed socially active in his own circle.  A few months went by and my relationship with Clerk had turned into one of amusement, we would wind each other up, grab the occasional coffee and we struck up a bit of a bond.  Around 6months later our flat was being sold (from what I can remember) so with offers from both Clerk and the girl from Perth to search for somewhere we decided that the 3 of us would look together.

A few stressful 'OMG we are never finding anywhere decent that we can afford' later, I finally stumbled upon a potential option.  The flat was in the perfect location, was nothing special to look at but the rent was cheap-ish and best of all we wouldn't need a car to move... just a heap of manpower.  A few days later packed up and moved in.  The flat had a cupboard for a kitchen and a teeny dining room off that which we decided would be the communal living space, a small but functional bathroom and 3 bedrooms - 2 absolutely massive with fireplaces and bay windows, double beds, large wardrobes and sofas, 1 with an old springy army camp bed and roll-up matress, a small set of drawers and a tall narrow window.  We decided we would draw straws for the rooms and would swap every 3 months... guess which room I ended up with?!  Anyway I made the landlord put in a double bed which took up pretty much the entire room and I set up camp telling the others I would keep the room permanently if they both paid an extra £20 a month rent to make mine cheaper.  It was a crash pad, a place for me to sleep and nothing else.  These were my wild child days and so long as I could get a decent nights sleep, I was a happy girl and £40 a month... well that was a night out.

Clerk and I really got to know each other over the next few months and our relationship verged on sibling rivalry.  We would have bets over the silliest things, the loser having to do a dare or pick up some crappy task (laundry for a week, dishes for a month, say a certain phrase anytime someone said your name for a day...), we were always pranking each other too.  From the first day I realised Clerk would jump AND scream if you jumped out from round the corner it was 'game on'.  

Now something you should know about Clerk is that he was a Christian when I met him so things like betting, dares, dating and all the things that come along with that were in limited measures.  By the time I left however things were at such a way that he had dated one of my best friends, enjoyed all the things that came along with that, and our dares had reached epic highs with him streaking down the communal stairwell and doing a naked lap around the garden during a Christmas dinner the three of us hosted for ohhhh 14 of our closest friends.

So in short, we had a laugh, somehow managed to perfect the perfect flatshare environment and when we moved out all vowed to stay in touch... Which we are but as for meeting up... Terrible.  Until last week...

I did my annual 'Hey Clerk how are you doing' email check in and as usual we said we would try to meet the next time he was this way to visit his parents (they live 30miles away) and for once.. It actually played out.

It was a fantastic afternoon.  All the fun and none of the barriers we used to have due to the fact I've mellowed and he has become more outgoing.  In true Ser3ndipity and Clerk fashion however we had a bet somewhere in the afternoon and Clerk picked the dare to be 'the loser comes to the winners city for drinks soon'... very tame I thought but great to hear we were both on the same wavelength of 'We absolutely must do this again and soon'.  Anyway a few hours and a few drinks later we called it a day and headed to the train station.  This is when it all went a little weird.  I went in for a hug, he went in for a hug/kiss... We both went a shade of red and it was a little clumsy.  He then pulled his phone out (very organised for mr laid back) and before I knew it we had sorted out tonight - he is jumping through this evening for dinner/drinks at mine. A couple of light hearted but potentially flirty texts in the week or so in between and here we are.  The 'did I misread that situation or did something unexpected happen and we both got a - I think I might fancy him/her' moment.

Sooo red wine - check.  White wine - check, chocolate pots chilling in the fridge - check, mexican food ingredients in the fridge - check.

I'll let you know how it goes... Could have been a total misread but I've a feeling that tonight for both of us is somehow a 'getting a feel for the situation' moment.

Thursday 13 December 2012

Crash Land

Hey bloggers!

So it has been a crazy month or so and between poor health, a smashed laptop and a heap of work I have well and truly let things slide with the blog :\  Never fear however, I am back now and have lots of bits and bobs to tell you, talk about and generally procrastinate over this next while.

  • Work wise I'm still plodding along, no real big steps or changes coming up before Christmas although I have two potential job offers lingering in the background so I shall keep you updated.
  • Social life wise things are on the up, despite an ever tightening wallet and an ever decreasing bank balance after everything that has gone on this last week or so I've been out and about a heap and am feeling great for it - more fun and nights out on the cards.  Red has moved back to the city after having worked away the last 12months so we having been catching up, hanging out and generally having a lot of fun of late.  I've also managed to catch up with balloo, g-star, mercury and a few others :)
  • Love life wise things have been well... not interesting as such but there are a few things going on.  Radiohead is coming to see me the first week in January, G-star and I had a mini moment, nothing to write about but I think there might be something there that deserves some exploration.  OOJ has been his usual 'mess with your head' self and there is a seriously attractive guy at work that has smiled at me in passing.   I'm also now in touch with a guy from USA who we shall call Beef due to the fact he is seriously hot! He is married and everything is platonic but he has made me realise that you can have it all if you really want.  He is charming, gorgeous, has a decent job, a beautiful house and wife and two awesome kids.  I feel like the UK needs a few more men like this one! 
  • The real news however is that I met with and caught up with an old flatmate of mine from 6/7yrs ago early last week,  we had a fantastic time and we are meeting again this Friday.  I'll fill you in on the details tomorrow, but in short... I have an inkling that Friday might hold a couple of unexpected turns
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Twin Atlantic - Crash Land
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lA7xOWxYvqU

Saturday 17 November 2012

Bridesmaid Bartering

So the psychic is coming tonight and I am truly apprehensive.  The others coming seem to have been to a couple before and have loved it but all I have visions of is some creepy lady telling me horrible things and leaving something behind when she leaves - why did it have to be my flat?  I know I am the only one that lives in town (as we all know I am a postcode snob) but I'm feeling very edgy about it.

Don't get me wrong I think a lot of these people are just very adept at reading people and putting out hot and cold feelers, something I utilise in my day to day working life, but with a seriously long waiting time to book this woman and a heap of people raving about her I'm more inclined to think she might have something going on.   I'll keep you informed.

Other than that I got my first bridesmaid task today (the first of many I have been told).  I need to call the two potential wedding venues and haggle my little socks off.  Herb has found her ideal and backup options and has already taken prices and haggled somewhat but we both know this is where my skills truly lay so I'm now being sent in as covert OPs.  I am going to call independently and see what I can do in relation to the figures.  Then phase one is complete.  Phase two comes in to play when we go and see the places later this month - on the phone I'm good but in person I'm a demon.  Herb and Barron have a tight budget so we are going to tag team the negotiations. They will take it as far as they can with the use of their parents and then I will be sent in as the secret weapon.  Lets hope I'm as good at this as we are all hoping.

Friday 16 November 2012

Flip

Went to see breaking dawn part 2 today and I'm not ashamed to say I loved it.  Ahhh if only the men (*ahem lets not point out they are boys) in movies existed in real life.


So tomorrow is psychic night.  I've got a few people coming over for drinks/nibbles and a session with a supposedly brilliant psychic. We had to book her months ago!  Will be good to catch up with everyone and I'm hoping I get given a tasty titbit for what lays ahead.  The last two psychics I went to see both told me I would die in my early 30s - harsh!  Needless to say I haven't seen one for over 10yrs.  

Sunday I've got a date with a guy, next week I've got a date with a girl and Monday I'm back to work until xmas.

In random news I've had a sore achy jaw for the last 2 days.  Very bizzare!  Watch me wake up with lock jaw one day this week :/


Thursday 15 November 2012

Just A Simple Case Of...

Girl meets boy.  Boy sweeps girl off her feet.  Girl falls deeply and madly in love only to get her heart broken by Boy.  Girl picks herself up.  Girl meets boy.  Boy tries to change girl into something she isn't.  Girl dumps boy.  Boy plays emotional tag with girl.  Girl is sucked in and tells boy she might consider giving it another go.  Boy tells girl he loves her.  Boy disappears.  Girl is left thinking wtf just happened.

Top that off with a lack of jobs, a lack of money, Christmas holidays around the corner, a serious case of the winter romance/sex blues, crappy health for a little while and there you have it bloggers... the last few weeks of my life in a nutshell.

Back tomorrow with some of my usual Ser3ndipity tasty treats cause this girl is officially on a mission to turn her life around before Feb.  Sexy blogs and fun times ahoy. x

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Paris - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHlhOgQ36m8

Monday 29 October 2012

Half In & Half Out

I'm still contemplating running.

Last night I removed myself from every social media site I'm part of, deleted all my social networking apps and grabbed my lease from the kitchen drawer to see the earliest date I could jump ship.

I don't really have that many things since moving into this flat, what I do have would probably get me by a month or so, I've a heap of annual leave pay from work to take and I know mum would take the cats.  I would need to say goodbye to a few people and make sure I came back for Herb & Barron's wedding but other than that I'd be no worse off anywhere else than here.

Maybe sometimes in life it is good to throw caution to the wind and cleanse your soul.  

But what cleanses my soul...

  • Music
  • Swimming
  • Fresh air
  • Candlelight
  • The ocean
I'm going to jump in the car this weekend and head to one of the two places I go when I really need to think things through.  Yep, I think I need to sort out my head and start checking off my list of people to see.

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Courrier - Between

Saturday 27 October 2012

Holding On & Letting Go

I've been pretty sick for this last little while which is why I haven't been blogging.  I'm not completely back on form yet and am sleeping most the day but thought I should check in.

I'm never sure if time in your own company is a good or bad thing.  I tend to get really frustrated when I can't get a minute to myself, but this last week or so I feel like all I have done is think, either while I'm sat up or when I'm sleeping.  I've had the same types of dreams over and over and over again.  I think all this rain check has done is allowed me to see that if I'm not careful my life is going to spiral out of control.

I want so badly to just let go to everything and blow wherever the wind takes me.  I feel like that's what I need.  A completely new start.  A new place.  New faces.  New feelings.  New experiences.  Air.  

Right now it's like I can't breathe.

So here's what I never told you about in my blog before... I'm someone with well... I have to fight with my own body a lot of the time and right now I think it might be winning.  

Sometimes I think if I just left it all behind... everything I know and everyone I love, I might just find the strength inside that I need to become who I am supposed to be.  The question is, is it important to have the right job, the right salary and be in the place people expect you to be at 30, or is it ok to throw it all away - run away from responsibility and embrace life like I'm starting my 20s all over again?  

I just need to take a deep breath of air.  Fresh, cold and icy on my lungs.

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Ross Copperman - Holding On & Letting Go

Tuesday 16 October 2012

Migraine

I'll be back as soon as I can look at my laptop without wincing.  Much to fill you in on bloggers. x


Wednesday 10 October 2012

Guitar Soothes The Soul

A lot has happened since I last wrote bloggers, but tonight isn't the night.

Sometimes the only think you need in life is some time to contemplate things in your own head space and the perfect track...


Friday 5 October 2012

Fuzzy Felt

So due to cancelled plans and a want to see each other I shall be meeting Navy boy tomorrow for the first time.  I am soooo excited and mega nervous.

We don't know all the regular things about each other like job, family, life etc. as the  conversation has been completely random and unforced.  It is a really bizzare situation to be in but I somehow feel ok with it as he dropped me a text to say he was thinking/feeling the same.  Talk about adding pressure... You meet someone, get to know what makes them laugh, talk about things that don't matter much as you know you can't meet for a while and somehow without realising you are suddenly smiling so much it looks like you have been sleeping with a coat hanger in your mouth.  Such a scary meet when you really both know that everything is now pinned on physical attraction.

Scary bananas!

We aren't meeting until tomorrow and already I have butterflies.  I think by tomorrow morning the butterflies will have made way for a crowd of mini clogg wearing people doing a mosh pit in my tummy.

Thank goodness I've a really great friend in Cilla who is going to get me through the 'omg I want to cancel' moments lol

Lifehouse - Hanging by a Moment

Thursday 4 October 2012

Jinx Ouch

Ok so yesterday I was asking you guys what you thought of protruding collar bones and micro dermals and today bloggers it is clear that I jinxed myself...  I woke this morning to a red, swollen and clearly infected micro dermal on the left hand side - 2 years I have had these and yet today for no reason at all my body has decided to reject and start pushing one out?!?!

I am currently sat on my couch, laptop at the ready to call the piercing studios in the area at 9am to see if someone will let me come in so they can have a look.  I've a sneaking suspicion they will need to cut the current implant out and place a new anchor altogether.  Whatever they need to do I don't want to  have it removed and not replaced.  I would look daft with just one and I have seen what they need to do to remove them - scalpel ahoy!  So there is no way I want that either.

*sniff, I love my micro dermals.  I wonder what caused this to happen??

In other news, I met G-star last night as he is kitty sitting for me next week as I'm heading to London for a few work things.  Had a really nice time catching up quickly over coffee and a key handover and it turns out that G-star has taken my lead and has put himself on match.com and has his first date this Saturday which he is thoroughly nervous about.  I am however sure he will do great, he is a good looking guy, had a great physique, dresses well, smells good and yeah he is a little shy and needs a kick up the bum to step outside his comfort zone, but with the right girl he would soar.  I can't wait to hear how it went :)

My life in relation to guys on the other hand is really interesting at the moment.  A couple of guys I have known for a while and are recently single seem to have ear marked me for the schmooze treatment, I'm doing pretty well with the online dating thing and can keep my evenings/weekends interesting for the foreseeable future.  The exciting news however is that despite not being able to meet up yet Navy boy and I have had a couple of random text message conversations and he seems soooooo right for me (and yes bloggers, I normally would be very anti this type of behaviour before meeting face to face), we however can't seem to get a break and every time he is free I'm not and visa versa.  We are both away next week, me with work and him visiting friends and family as he is due to deploy in November again for a few months so the following week/weekend we have both agreed to wiggle schedules/ditch plans to make it happen.

In true Ser3ndiptiy style, it couldn't be simple... but I am pretty sure this is a watch this space scenario ;)

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Girls Aloud - Promise
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y3qxUqwrNDA&feature=BFa&list=PLD0C192FD9C0DCC9F&shuffle=562266

Wednesday 3 October 2012

Bones


So what do you guys think, is it sexy if you can see a girls collar bones sticking out or does it gross you out?


I love my collar bones and they haven't been sticking out for a while now, I told my friend that it is what I am aiming for with this weight loss thing and she seemed to think I was mental?  I think its cute, it also means my micro dermals are more obvious.

Thoughts?

Friday 28 September 2012

As Easy As Breathing

I spent an hour or so talking to OOJ on the phone this morning, I laughed a heap, I've really missed having him around.

Been a busy one so far bloggers and it is off to date land this evening.  I hope I am doing the right thing and I'm ready this time.  Either way I've confirmed so there is no going back now *deep breaths.  I hope the rain stays off so I don't have to contend with nerves and an afro.

Yep.  I hope now a little time has passed OOJ and I can work the friend thing out, I was a little harsh in the way I thought things through with him I think.  The whole situation was just one that was pretty intense and full of chemistry and personality clashes - neither of us looked great in that light.  Like it or not, despite it all it seems I found myself someone else I can really talk to, don't have to pretend I'm someone I'm not when we speak which is... well, like taking a really big deep breath.  I'm glad he is happy now :)

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Cheyenne Mize - Not
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s26F3KiOiu0&feature=bf_next&list=FLa_P-Zpvtawwxj_QUbEEytA&shuffle=503856

Thursday 27 September 2012

Rack 'Em Up

For an uneventful week, I sure have got a lot done...


  • Sorted out some financial stuff for my mum that required negotiating and bulldozing my way through a heap of council paperwork much to the surprise of all involved.
  • Found two jobs to apply for (yes two!!), one in this city and one in Australia that I think I have a really great chance at getting - not sure I fancy Australia but hey, if it is mine for the taking then why the hell not!
  • Flat inspection completed.
  • First work appraisal from my new boss completed - Apparently I exceed expectations in all areas kazzaaahhhh :)
  • Lost 3kg, that's right 3kg - helloooooo killer bridesmaid body come this time next year!  The plan is to lose what I need and to then tone the ass out of what is left ready for a weeks worth of preening before the big event.  And yes... no question in my mind.  I will be partaking in my first botox treatment ahead of the big day.
Don't worry though bloggers, I have factored in some fun...
  • Oldest nephews 18th birthday present bought - hello parachute jump!  I think my sister in law is going to pop a gasket.
  • Booked a sky dive for myself - once I'm looking fantastic I'm going to take Herb for a skydive as part of her hen thing.  She has done a parachute jump twice before (I think those look mega scary but for some reason a skydive seems much more acceptable)  so I've put the deposit down for us to do tandem jumps.
  • I've also racked up some dates for this weekend.  Drinks with the brother this Friday eve and date with a 6ft dude who works in construction management this Saturday afternoon.  
  • Not to be slow off the mark I'm already organising for next week - there is one particular guy who is in the navy (never really saw myself with a military man but hey) who is the hot favourite at the moment.
  • I've a murder mystery event lined up next weekend for a friends birthday which will apparently be heading on to the gay club in town so I'll be embracing the night and keeping my eye open for a sexy chick.
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AC/DC - You Shook Me All Night Long

Thursday 20 September 2012

Chasing Dreams

I feel like there are so many things going on at the moment and at the same time there is nothing at all happening.

Life is really complicated sometimes and yet the solution is always something simple.  It is hard to see the wood for the trees.

One day at a time, tiny steps is the only thing that can be done when chasing dreams.

Sweet dreams bloggers x

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Taking Back Sunday - New American Classic
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWi7byODxO0

Posts I hope you post

So one of you sent me a link to a page entitled '55 blog posts I hope you post' which made me chuckle so in an imaginary hat off to you moment to that blogger, hold on tight because we are about to cover off the most relevant subjects in one blog, you probably know the answers to a few but here we go...


1.      The story of my most serious injury:  Roller derby training injury resulting in to date 25+ shoulder dislocations and 70% mobility.

2.      The person I admire the most: My dad

3.       Why I love my hometown:  Because it is the place I had the best days of my life, I learnt to love, I learnt to cry and I learnt how to be the person I am.  It also has the most beautiful beach that to this day is still my favourite place in the whole wide world.

4.       Why I hate my hometown:  Everybody knew everybody’s business and everyone it seemed was rich... I wasn’t lol.

5.       My high school clique:  Geek chic

6.       My worst subject in school:  History.  I have the attention span of a goldfish and a lot of our classes seemed to be regional based which didn’t interest me at all. 

7.       How I shop, spend my money and what I wished I had spent less money on:  Quickly and somewhat impulsively, on things that make me happy, and crap like food.

8.       The cause I really believe in:  Equality

9.       If I had a Super Power:  I’d have the ability to shape shift, that way I could orchestrate myself       into the perfect life by pretending to be other people J

10.   Here’s where my opinion differs from the majority:  I think the government should be run by teenagers, the age where everybody has ideals and the world hasn’t yet phased us.

11.   My greatest sin against the environment:  I hate to admit this but while I always bin my litter I am terrible for spitting out chewing gum.  Yes... I am one of those people!

12.   The book that changed my life:  Watching the English by Katie Fox.  It made me see the world through different eyes and warm amusement.

13.   My unexpected mentor:  A guy I once went on two or three dates with called Dave, I have no idea where he is or what he is doing these days but something he saw in me when I was 23/24ish somehow focussed me and set me on the right path again.  I kind of owe a lot to Dave.

14.   I couldn’t live without this song:

15.   Why I believe in luck:  Because when you look at the world some people have everything you could dream of and did nothing to deserve it while others try so very hard and seem to end up with the bare minimum.  Sometimes I think life is about being in the right place at the right time.

16.   How I earned my worst karma:  I told my dad a lie and before I could get to a point in my life where I could tell him the truth he had died.  Biggest mistake of my life.

17.   My favourite item of clothing growing up:  I had a pair of Khaki combat trousers when I was 16 that I pretty much wore 24/7.  I loved them  and I am sure they fell off before I threw them away.

18.   If this celebrity knocked on my door, I’d run away with them:  There are sooo many!  Ryan Reynolds, Zac Efron, Ryan Phillipe, Charlie Simpson, Matt Damon just to name a few.

19.   The only thing that I can teach you:  You are responsible for your own life and how it turns out, you might get dealt some crap cards, you might even get dealt the worst hand known to man, but the only person responsible for the decisions you make is yourself, and once you realise that the rest will fall into place.

Wednesday 19 September 2012

tragic logic Vs risky business


It is soooooo cold!  I can't get warm at all!


The choices are clear...


I either buy a onesie - cosy and yet tragic

I resume a friend with benefit scenario just to benefit from the sleep spooning action.

Tuesday 18 September 2012

Dating, Weighting and Psychicing...?


Weighting
I signed up to weight watchers last week - got to shed a few kg well in advance of the wedding.  I want to walk into that room and be the second most talked about girl there... for all the right reasons.

Don't worry I'm not going to turn into a weight loss blogger, but if anything amusing happens along the way I'll keep you up to speed.  I did however have my first ever protein shake today... never again.  

Dating
So I've a date lined up this Friday, next Friday and next Saturday so far.  I think I might try to squeeze another one in just for good measure.  This Friday is the brother, next Friday is 6ft 4 and works in construction management, next Sat is a gig playing muso.  Not bad for a week of online dating - I'm almost impressed with myself lol

Psychicing
Ya so I know that isn't a word but who cares!  A few people I work with have all been to see this psychic woman now who is apparently amazing.  I'm always somewhat dubious about psychics, however I could use a boost and I am sure it will be a giggle so I've booked her to do a party at my flat, the earliest date I could get her is mid November - aaaaaaages away!  She better be worth it.

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Mary J Blige - Family Affair


Saturday 15 September 2012

Brothers

So I think I might actually be a little bit interested in someone - hurrah!  Although in true Ser3ndipity style, it isn't a straight forward one - surprise surprise.


So as we all know I keep dipping into the world of online dating, decide it is total pants and that the men are crap and then dipping back out.  At the moment I've a few people chasing me for dates which is always nice, but as none of them really float my boat, I decided mid-last week to put myself back online (free site of course).



Anyway, the day after I put myself back on I got an email from a face I recognised - the brother of a guy I manage at work.  Tbh the email was more of a 'hey are you... I think you manage my brother... hi' so I replied figuring it would be the best way to ensure the entire team of people I manage don't end up logging in online to look at my dating profile  - not something I would relish.  A few emails back and forth later, all less like those tedious 'what do you like, what do you do for fun' crap emails and more along the lines of friendly banter like you would have in a bar like you had been introduced to a friend of a friend, and I can't lie bloggers... My interest has definitely piqued.



The guy I manage is one of the ones I have a good rapport with and we often exchange a few witty remarks, usually over our differing taste in music and similar bank balances (*ahem zero) and to date he is one of the most sought after men in the workplace - happily attached however and so very much off limits.   Interestingly we have both commented in the past how similar I am to his girlfriend both looks and some aspects of our personality.  I want to be clear however, never has a line been crossed by either of us, nor have we even come close, its just one of those completely innocent friendships - it is sooooo refreshing to know someone so devoted to their partner after all the crappy men that have come to light in my life of late.  From what I know so far it seems that all the good bits in this scenario are present in his brother only he is much more motivated, career driven and we have the same taste in music - you have to admit, it does sound interesting.

Anyway he asked me out for a drink this weekend, today in fact but I've pushed back to next week.  I'm full of the cold and even heading out to Red's apartment last night for dinner and a catchup was close to tipping me over the edge - a girl likes to look her best for a date, especially a first one.

So what do you think bloggers?  Good/bad idea?  I've spoken to a couple of other managers in work and they all seem to think it is ok, but I can't help but think it is a grey area.  I think I'll go on one date and if there looks to be a second in the pipeline I may have to have a conversation.


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I'm still in LURRRRVE with this band
Twin Atlantic - Make a Beast of Myself
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mixzboYrx0E 

Wednesday 12 September 2012

Three times a bridesmaid...


So I just got the text.  While on holiday in NY Baron proposed to Herb and she said yes.  My best friend is engaged!!!

I am soooooooo happy for her, they are perfect for each other and after 8years 2months (so I am reliably informed), they are actually making it official.  He is one lucky boy and she is one lucky girl.  I have no doubt what so ever that they will make it work and last a lifetime.

I tell you something though, that is going to be one seriously interesting wedding.  My first ever long-term boyfirend Clutz will be there... with his wife and kid.  A guy we were all friends with till he went loco and ended up stabbing someone will be there (Baron would feel obliged to invite him), Mr X will be there, a heap of old school friends will be there and yes... at least 2 others that I have slept with at some point.  And will I be able to hide out of view?  No.  Say hello to the chief bridesmaid.  

This weekend I'm going to watch a myriad of movies like 'my best friends wedding', 'the wedding date' and 'picture perfect' while I try to work out what my action plan needs to be.  I need to be utterly fabulous and not even remotely single by the time this event comes around.  A serious action plan is needed.  Herb isn't the type of girl to wait around once something has been decided.  I'll give it 9months to a year before they are walking down the aisle.

I keep having flashes of the movie 27 dresses in my head where the bride actually has to hand deliver the bouquet to Katherine Heigl in the middle of the dance floor as she is the only one there.  To add credence to that Herb and I always said we would make each other wear the most horrific, frilly, floral, puffy bridesmaid dresses we could get our hands on for pure comedy value.  Not entirely sure this is going to help matters... EEK!

I've already been a bridesmaid twice in my life... If this one is going to tip me over the edge I might as well go out with style.

Friday 7 September 2012

Risque

Ok so I have a friend (Lets call him Turner) who recently qualified as a photographer.  Initially he had wanted to focus on architecture, but due to a few art/fashion shoots, he has since decided to expand his portfolio and take an advanced course with that focus.  Anyway, cutting to the chase Turner asked me last night if I would consider becoming one of his subjects for the three month course.  To be specific, the shoots would all revolve around fine art.


I am really tempted, I love fine art photography and have quite a few pieces similar to what I believe he is looking to aim for on show in my apartment.  His plan is to have me work with another girl and a guy who he has photographed many times and to use our bodies in contrast to each other a mixture of gritty, erotic, beautiful and innocent.  The catch however is that these pieces will be for him to use at his discretion, will go on his website with selected prints for sale, and he already has a potential sponsor for a gallery showing should his pieces turn out as well as hoped.  


Don't get me wrong, I absolutely trust anything Turner would take to turn out fantastic and am comfortable in my own skin, but it is still quite a venture to consider.  Just to keep you in the loop, I've known Turner for over 5years, have seen most of his work to date, he is gay, has a long term partner who works in TV/fashion and this most definitely is high end art and not glamour in any way shape or form.  I can't lie, I am shocked and yet flattered to be asked... but I'm not sure I am brave enough to do it.  It would mean 5 or 6 people seeing my body exceptionally intimately up close, and then who knows how many others after that.

The two other models he has in mind are much more photogenic - a girl he has worked with many times, so lean and perfect I'm sure even her internal organs would look good in a kodak moment, and a guy who has exceptionally defined features and bone structure to die for (I also know the guy a little as we met in a bar a year or so ago - he asked me on a date and after initially agreeing I pulled a permanent rain check.  A few months later he appeared in one of Turner's photos and when I queried how he knew him,  It turned out he is a regular model for Turner's boyfriend). 

I'm tempted to agree with the proviso that any of the artwork I am in excludes my face.  I can't imagine this will be a problem as I've yet to see a piece of fine art photography I like that clearly defines a face, it seems to be more about lines and the curves of a body rather than the person that owns it.

What do you think bloggers?  Would you do it?

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Avril Lavigne - Runaway

Thursday 6 September 2012

Bump & Grind


So my new upstairs neighbours are beginning to grind on me a little.  I think it is a group of lads as they are pretty noisy, talk loudly, stomp about and constantly have music playing (with mega loud bass.. remove the bass it probably wouldn't bother me) and when you do hear a female voice this often leads to a a few hours or ooooooooooooooo ahhhhhhhhhhhhh mmmmmmmmmm later in the night.  Last night tipped me over the edge.  


I was in most the day yesterday before work and had the dulcit tones of the bass beating over and over in my head as I tried to get paperwork done.  After work I was met with either war movies on their TV for xbox as there were lots of bomb and screaming noises.  Luckily my bedroom is usually much quieter so I got to sleep no problem but was woken up at 4am to bed squeaking and one of the guys moaning and groaning so loudly he should be starring in his own porno.  I'm like a bear with a sore head today.

Think I might have to pop up and introduce myself.  So tempting to take an introduction parcel (WD40 for their bed and masking tape for his mouth)... Am I getting old bloggers?

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Noisy Neighbour - David Guetta Ft. Akon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KonPlW7EbYs

Tuesday 4 September 2012

Yawn - Stretch - Cuddle

I headed to the cinema on Sunday with someone I used to manage at work.  We had an unusual relationship as I knew him before I got promoted and we used to be extremely sneaky - working our asses off the first week of the month and then slacking off more and more as the month went on.  Always under the radar, always working as little as possible.  It was an interesting notion a few months later that I would have to manage him but one that made for a few giggles along the way.  Anyway long story short the whole thing worked well as we walked the line of 'boss vs employee' and a few months ago he left the company as he managed to land himself a job working in stocks/shares for a major bank (happy days).  

We stay in touch on and off, mainly to discuss movies we have seen (we both like a decent horror/thriller) with the occasional drop in of 'how are you doing, any drama in your love life'.  So when something caught my eye in the cinema a few weeks ago I dropped him a text to see if he fancied it - Its hard to find someone who actually enjoys being scared.  Anyway it didn't pan out, mainly because of my schedule, but this week 'the possession' was released so we decided to go and see if it was worth the hype - it isn't.

You know when you get the feeling that you have agreed to do something completely platonic, but the person you are meeting all of a sudden ups the ante on the double entendre text messages and starts factoring in waaaaay more kisses?  It was one of those.


Despite a few worries about awkward situations, I managed to leave the evening without having to fend off any surprise lunges, but it took some serious dedication.  There was the odd arm brush here, the presence of his leg against mine on too many occasions for it to be chance and the odd overly intense look as we chatted beforehand.  I was like a superhero, fending off  his potential advances with witty comebacks and sarcasm while repositioning my body in subtle ways to avoid any kind of hand/leg grabbing in the darkness of the room.  The Yawn - Stretch - Cuddle move was  definitely off the agenda. You'd have been impressed bloggers!

Anyway as you can tell I am still single and ready to mingle and despite a few keen parties, have yet met anyone to take me into the land of coupledom again.  You will be pleased to know however that I am out on the prowl (yes the prowl) this coming Friday as I am feeling a little frisky of late and have decided I need a minor distraction to put a smile on my face and keep me in the waiting game a little longer.  I'll keep you posted.


Monday 3 September 2012

Naked Salute

I'm loving the facebook page dedicated to Prince Harry encouraging people to give him a naked salute.  I can't say I'm not tempted to jump on the bandwagon.

I'm neutral on the royal family debate with the exception of a few irks - My tax money paying for their exuberant holidays , and the hand out of expensive educations to those who couldn't give a crap and decide to study 'history of art' or something equally useless while the rest of us rack up debt that we will be paying off the rest of our lives in order to do something that will actually help society.  That said... Imaginary hat off to Prince Harry!

If I had to pick where my pennies got spent, I'd rather have a laugh at a bit of scandal and add some normality into the mix.

As a good looking lad in his 20s why can't Harry go loco in Vegas and have a few comedy kodak moments left to haunt him the rest of his life.  If someone could have captured the look on the Queens face when 'her majesty' first saw the photos I'm sure we could have generated enough cash as a Nation to pay off everyone's student debt.

Whoever said what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas, well... they lied!
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